to Osho: What does it mean to be a seeker on the spiritual path?
means basically two things:First, that your life, as you know it externally, is
meaningless- that life, as we know it, does not bring any fulfillment. In the
moment of that recognition , the search begins. This is the negative part, but
out of this negativity the positive can come into existence. Spiritual seeking
means at first a negative feeling, a feeling that life, as it is, is meaningless.The
whole story end simply with death. Earth unto earth, dust unto dust. And in the
end you have nothing in your hands. You go through so much misery, through such
a hell in life - and in the end you have not gained anything.
That is the negative part on the search,
and life helps you to come to this point. This negativity, this frustration, this
pain, ist the part that the world takes care of. Once you have looked really deeply
at this fact,this meaningless of life, just as it is, you normally begin to seek,
because you cannot be contented with such a life. This meaninglessness creates
a deep gap between you and everything that life consists of. An unbridgeable gap
is created, and becomes bigger and bigger, you are no more anchored.
This is the negative part of the search, and
life helps you to arrive at this point. This negativity, this frustration, this
suffering, is the part that life cares care of. Once you have looked really deeply
at this fact, this meaninglessness of life, just as it is, you ordinarily begin
to search, because you cannot be satisfied with a meaningless life.This meaninglessness
creates an abyssimal gap between you and everything that life consits of. An unbridgeable
distance arises and becomes bigger and bigger, you are no more rooted.
Then begins the search for meaning
, for something that could give you blissfulness.That is the other part of the
search- the positive part.Spiritual seeking means to look at reality direcly,
and not to live in illusions.Our whole life is only our projection, our illusion.We
are not concerned to experience that which is,but to accomplish that which we
desire. We could use the word "desire" as a symbol for our so-called life. It
is an illusion. We are not in search for that which is, we are in search for the
fulfillment of our dreams.
so we go on desiring,but life disappoints us again and again, because it it as
it is.It cannot be the way we desire it .We can only become disappointed.Not that
reality is against us -we donīt adjust to reality! We are only interested in our
dreams. But all dreams will someday be destroyed. As long as we dream, everything
is ok, but if a dream is being fulfilled, the whole thing becomes absurd and disillusioned.
Spiritual seeking means to understand
this negative part: that desiring ist the root cause of all disappointments; to
desire means to create a hell on your own accord. To desire is to be worldly.
Being worldly means to desire and to desire continuously, and never realizing
that every desire leads to frustration and nothing else. Once you have realized
this, you stop desiring, or you have only one desire: to realize who you are.
You say: I am not here to project my ideas unto reality, but to recognize that
which is. Not that I should be like this or that, or reality should be like this
or that- I want only to realize the naked reality, however it may be. I donīt
want to imagine anything. "I" cannot interfere. I want to meet reality just as
Spiritual search in its positive
part means to encounter reality as it is, without any desire. When there is no
desire left, the mechanism of projection stops functioning.Then you see that which
is.This existence,that which is, gives us everything, once you know it. Desires
promise everything but donīt deliver. Our desires always promise blissfulness
and happyness, but fulfillment never happens, and every new desire only ends in
another new desire. Out of every desire arise hundred new and bigger desires,
which of course bring bigger frustrations in the end. A man with a desireless
consciousness is on the spiritual search.
A spiritual seeker is someone who has become fully aware of the stupidity of all
desires, and who is ready to experience that which is.Once you are ready for this,
reality is always very close- just around the next corner. But you are never here.
You are in the future with your desires, and reality is always in the present-
here and now! But you are never in the present. You are always in the future,
in your desires, in your dreams - asleep. Und reality is here and now. When you
awaken from this sleep, when this dream is broken and you awaken into reality,
which is here and now, in this presence you are reborn.Then you find fulfillment
and exctasy and everything that you have always desired.
Spiritual seeking means to be here and now, and that is only possible when you
have no desires. The desiring mind always goes back and forth, like a pendulum.
It either moves into the past, into memory,or into the future, into desires and
dreams; but it is never here and now. It continuously misses exactly the moment
of here and now. It always moves between both the extremes: the past or the future.And
in this swinging back and forth between past and future we miss reality. Reality
is here and now. It has never passed and is never in the future. It is always
present. Now ist the only moment.Now is the tiny moment. Now is the only time.
The now never passes away. It is eternal. It is always here- but we are not here.
To be a spiritual seeker
means therefore to be here. Call it meditation or yoga or prayer, the label does
not matter; mind should not be present, but mind exists only by thinking about
the past or the future. Otherwise mind cannot exist. Yesterday I talked to somebody.I
told him: "You cannot think in the present. The moment you are thinking the moment
has already become past." So mind cannot be in the present.It exists only in memories
of the past or in plans for the future. It is never in contact with the present.
That is impossible. When there is no thinking happening,there is no mind.This
state is meditation.Then you are here and now.Then you explode into reality.
The spiritual search is no search for
moksha, for salvation, for death. This is again a desire. A greed, even bigger
than the greed for money, for power, for prestige . The desire for salvation is
even a bigger greed; because it moves even beyond death. And the spiritual search
is no search for god, because again this is just a desire. When you look for god,
the mind has again become greedy . You look for god for a certain purpose.No matter
how deep and unconscious this process is, you look for god to get something. By
this I donīt want to say that there is no god once the spiritual search has come
to its ultimate fulfillment. I am not saying that there is no salvation, when
you have reached the state of meditation and consciousness is free of thoughts.The
salvation is there- you are liberated. But it is not a result of your desiring
mind. The salvation is simply a result of knowing what reality is. God is there-
but not because of your desires. God is reality. And when you know reality, you
know it is divine. Reality is divine.
But the search is not for god or salvation or blissfulness, because whenever there
are desires again you project your thoughts into the future. Spiritual seeking
means not to promise yourself anything from the future; it means to remain in
the present, living in the present, and the readyness to accept whatever happens
here and now. The divine explodes in your interiority- freedom comes, but they
are not things that you posess, they are natural consequences; shadows of recognizing
So first we have to recognize, that
the course of life, as it is is, is frustrating. You cannot have anymore illusions,
otherwise you cling to it. Taste every experience in life totally. Donīt run away.
Experience everything so totally that you experience the disappointment that it
brings. Donīt escape, donīt turn away, only then this part of the search will
be complete, and you can take the jump into the here and now. When you have recognized
that the future is the real root of all this nonsense that human mind puts into
the world, you have taken the deciding step. You have progressed, now you are
also able to recognize that which is.
Life is a great help in the first, the negative part. Therefore move into every
experience, into every desire, experience it! Donīt renounce before you are ripe
for it. Thatīs what is happening: you are not yet really disappointed by life,
but already greedy for religious promises. You have not experienced life a s divine,
but already drunk from divine ideas , and then the second part becomes very difficult,
because you have not passed through the first. Therefore go through the first
part, then the second part becomes very easy.
The second part is only difficult if the first has not been lived totally. Then
you ask: " How to meditate?" Then you say:" The mind goes on and on, the stream
of thoughts never stops. I cannot stop thinking. How can I make the stream of
my thoughts silent?" The desires are still there, and every desire creates more
thoughts. The first part has not been fulfilled.
A mature spiritual seeker is a man who has gone through life without any fear
and knows every nook and corner.He knows life so well that nothing remains left
behind unknown. Then meditation is easy, because there is nobody who has to think
any thoughts, there is nobody who could have any desires. You simply have to shout
"hu!" and you are in the present. Every simple means brings you to a full stop.
For example the staff of a zen master in front of your nose...the zen master raises
the staff- and you are in the present. Such simple means are enough, if the first
part has been fulfilled.
The zenmaster Rinzai once spoke in a temple. He had already started speaking when
someobody disturbed him. "Whatīs the matter?" Rinzai asked, and interrupted his
talk. The man stood up and said and asked:"Is there a soul?" Rinzai took his staff
into his hands as a threat, and made his way through the crowd. The man began
trembling; he had not expected such an answer. Rinzai stood before him, put both
hands around his throat and pressed tightly. The eyes of the man bulged, but Rinzai
kept pressing more and more , and asked: "Who are you?Close your eyes!" The man
closed his eyes, and Rinzai kept asking:"Who are you?" After a while the man opened
his eyes, started laughing, bowed down to Rinzai and said:" ou have answered my
Such a simple means! But the
man was ready. Rinzai was asked if he did the same with everybody who asked. Rinzai
said:"This man was ready.He did not ask to just ask something.He was ready. The
first part of his search was complete. He really asked. This question,`Is there
a soul?ī was a question of life and death to him.he was totally finished with
life.This life has brought him to the edge of death, and now he asked:' Is there
life?' Thatīs why none of my answers would not have made any sense.I have only
helped him to be fixed in the present moment." "Of course you can be neither in
the past nor the future when somebody strangles you, almost kills you. You can
only be here and now, it is too dangerous to miss this moment. To such a being
I only say :" Go inside and find out who you are!", and he will be changed and
transformed . He goes into samadhi. He remains fixed in the moment.
If one can be in the present just for
a moment, one has experienced it; the meeting has happened.Now you cannot lose
track anymore. Spiritual seeking means: Knowing that which is. What is all this?
Not all that, but this. What is all this - this I which speaks, this you which
listens- this whole.What is all this? Be still and go deeply into that which is;
open yourself, and let it open itself....than a meeting happens.This meeting is
the goal of the search.You have been longing for this meeting, this union, all
the time. Thatīs why we have called it yoga.Yoga means meeting. The word yoga
means meeting, unity, coming together again, becoming again one.
But the so-called spiritual people donīt look for real spirituality. They only
project their desires unto another dimension. And no desire can be projected unto
the true spiritual dimension, because this dimension is available only to those
who are desireless.Those who desire only create new illusions and dreams. First
of all understand that desiring is a race without ever arriving anywhere. Then
be still- and see that which is. All is open, only we are locked into our desiring